hi all

seen rheummy today

altho i'm still not well enough--damn throat now have b---dy cold---she did take throat swab one thing my GP hasn't done

she wants me to start MTX in a couple of weeks when i'm well

fatigue cannot be resolved as you know but she says need to have long discussion with GP re Depression--she thinks i am depressed and very down

very down being understatement---so maybe back onto meds--work she suggestes i don't give up--yet---as she is worried i will ebcome even more depresed

so ahve to phone and make an appoint next week with GP and go from there

how did Rose and the rest of us that had appoints today get on??


so all in all fairly positive--i think!!


caz xx

Hi Carol
Really pleased your appt went well and hope you have a good GP you can talk things over with.. Thing is theres so much more to RA than painful joints! Hope your throat clears up and mtx works out for you keep positive xx

Hi Carol

Sorry to hear you feel so low at the moment, can so understand how you feel, so very difficult. Even before I got RA I know depression can make you feel very tired and low so in some ways it is a vicious circle. I m sure you are very positive and have a kind and caring team who are looking after you which helps so much, and when you start the mtx and haven t got the nasty cold you will feel a lot better and things will improve.

Thinking of you Julia x

hi all

thank you for all your good wishes

i promise i won't start MTX until i have got rid of this cold/sore throat

will prob have to go back to gp tomorrow any way as sick note runs out i was beginning to feel better but don't think quite ready to go back to work yet

will see how i feel in the morning

i do feel 'swollen' tonight--does that make sense to anyone??

hands and ankles look puffy and feel stiff

thanks once again will keep you posted

caz xx

hi all

lorna thankyou for your reply

i seem to spend most of the day resting these days--either in bed or sat with my feet up

unfortunately i'm still not recovering from the repeated sore throats i've had --- 4 weeks on

still off work and now facing interview with my line manager and practice manager next tues --- just hope i'm fit to go in

also referal to occ health

maybe it's time to jump before i'm pushed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mood is very low--- doctor i saw says not depressed--not enough symptoms!!!!

what to do for the best??

love to all

caz xx

hi doreen

i have seen a different doctor recently she is brill--- was about to post on friday but no power all day!!!!

due to see her again tomorrow

still feeling very tired throat not sore but voice is not consistant

she did a lot!!!b of blds on thursday so get results tomorrow she is looking for glanduar fever --but she is beeing honest--not sure what she will find--if anything

stillsigned off--work NOT very happy---they have called me in for a meeting--if well enough --not sure why as i have not had more than 2/12 weeks signed off--altho have been off work for 41/2 as 2 were pre booked hols----see what happens tomorrow --hubby and i have been discussing me giving up work for best aprt of 12 months on and off--so handing in my notice will not have been a hasty desision--and to be honest i think i maybe 'pushed' if i don't ---i don't think they are going to be patient!!!!

saw my sister today--she has ME--has had for 7/8 years but in remission and looking better than i do!!!!!!!!!!

i will mention this to doc tomorrow not sure of relevance but we will have to see--symptoms i am showing are SOOOOO similar to what she had a t her lowest point!


will keep you posted

love

caz xx

Hi Caz

Good luck with the doctor tomorrow, hope things go well. Glandular Fever is a real pain and can really drag you down leaving you very depressed. It also hangs about in the system for ever and a day! Do hope she is able to give you some answers and something to help current problems.

Also hope the work issues go okay; as you say it won't be a hasty decision and sometimes it's best to put your health first. But only you know what's right for you

All the best Caz,

Lyn x

hi all

been doctors!! quote from her was''you are entitled to feel rubbish''--not glandular fever

sisiters ME noted -not ignored--but not thought to be relevant at this time

signed off for a further 5 weeks--just not recovering

although we have made BIG descision--i have handed in my notice at work--didn't go to meeting with manager as was signed off again

work that i do--did--doctors receptionost ---not condusive to recovery--i.e REST

the surgery deals with approx 4500 patients and that swells as you can emagine in the summer

it is very strange that i do not have to return to work--at this point--i hope to return to a job at some point

still take each day as it comes

thanks for all your support

love

caz xx

hi all

been thinking about resigning for several months as i am not able to think straight!! let alone be ppolite to patients.
a good friend and work mate actually said to me not so long ago that i had been pushing myself to come into work now it seems i pushed myself too hard
i had already cut my hours from full time to 18 hours so i couldn'y cut any more as with travel and running the car it would not have been worth the time as it was i was working my first hour each day to pay for travel etc

i have decided to take the opportunity to have a good break until Xmas -which isn't that far away---then take it from there

we will see-

i may do something voluntary like puppy walking for hearing dogs for the deaf to keep me on the ball--but for now think i will just take it easy

many thanks for all your support and good wishes

to end the post on some lovely news our daughter got engaged and is getting married in sorrento italy next year--now i really do have a motive to get well!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love caz xx